PEACE Keep ME Still (Jehovah Shalom)~

There are times when I get exhausted from my thoughts. I get exhausted, yet I allow my thoughts to keep me up at night. I allow myself to be attacked by the spirit of confusion, when I know what I know, and I know that I know better.. I know that I serve an AWESOME God, and I know that HE IS:JEHOVAH, Jehovah-Jireh, Jehovah-Rophe, Jehovah-Nissi, Jehovah-M'Kaddesh, Jehovah-Elohim, Jehovah-Rohi, Jehovah-Tsidkenu, Jehovah-Shammah, Jehova-Sabaoth and he is even MORE than all of that... Yet I STILL allow my thoughts to exaust me..

Learning Patience~

I know that I expect a lot of things in life, when it comes to better; I expect a better outcome, a better start, a better in-between, a better end, and a better ME.. I expect things at times to happen when I am not actually making them happen for MYSELF. Yes, I am taking it to God and letting go and letting God; but I am actually "LETTING GO". Meaning I don't FIGHT for better, nor do I myself TRY to even move towards BETTER. Oh but this is what I expect, in my mind I even put it all together and it makes sense, yet I do NOTHING to move towards BETTER.

Yes, I want and expect a HUSBAND.
Yes, I expect the house of MY dreams.
Yes, I expect, want and NEED stability.
Yes, I expect more of MYSELF.
Yes, I expect maturity when a person deals with me.
And YES, my list of WHAT I expect can go on and on......

Then God answers me and all my "expectations" and CLEARLY shows and STATES nothing less than FACTS to ME:
Yes, honey I can give you ALL that you EXPECT to have and do. But can you first answer these questions for YOURSELF; then come and talk to me about you "expecting better"?

How do you "expect" this husband, this MAN that I have for you when you have nothing to bring to the table YOURSELF? Why would I hand you BOAZ, and you NOT together? What are you doing or even better, WHAT have you DONE to prepare yourself to be someones WIFE? If I were to put you in that house could you keep it? If you had the house of your "dreams" could you REALLY maintain the up keep of such a home? Sweetie IF you expect MATURITY from a person, then WHY do you continue to deal with/put yourself in the company of such IMMATURE people? Dear, if you are complicated to people, then WHAT about you keeps wanting to deal with SIMPLE people and their SIMPLE ways? You say you even would like a point in your life where you are "STABLE" well baby WHY you keep SETTLING for LESS? If you want to be more stable honey, then why won't you TRY HARDER TO DO BETTER and HAVE BETTER? So you DO expect more of yourself you say..... So WHY you don't start being THE HEAD and not the TAIL?? Why don't you get YOUR LAZY, narrow minded, don't want to move cause I might step on a crack and fall self UP and make it HAPPEN?

My cousin said it best that yes, God has a very FUNNY sense of HUMOR oh but at the same time HE IS SO SERIOUS. I am constantly "thinking" about what, how and when but I am too scared of WHAT IF..I have not pushed MYSELF further, it's ME that has been holding ME UP. What GOD has for me he HAS already, he just waiting on ME to get ME together enough so that I don't MESS UP, WHAT HE HAS for me and my life.

God has shown me that he has given me ALL the tools throughout my life and even the muscle to make things happen, I just didn't want to use the sharp and too heavy tools because I was worried about strain, cuts and bruises.. Ha! I was worried about STRAIN, CUTS AND BRUISES do you HEAR ME??? I SHOULD have been worried about the STRAIN, CUTS, BRUISES, HEARTACHE and WOUNDS that are declared OPEN at ALL times from NOT using the tools GOD gave me to use. I mean, I have sat myself in some stuff that has caused me to NEED HOSPITALIZATION and REHABILITATION. I look BACK on all that and I WASTED time, ENERGY, and ME on what and WHO was ASSISTING in the CONFUSION in my life.

Now I have come to a point in my life where I UNDERSTAND and KNOW that I can't DO THIS thing called LIFE on my own. No, I NEED EVERYTHING that GOD is to GUIDE ME through, I NEED to have FAITH that HE GOT ME. I mean WHO do I honestly think had ME ALL THIS TIME?? I know what I know and as I said before I KNOW BETTER!!! If GOD is for ME, then WHO and WHAT can be against ME?? I, am currently doing MY part and I realize basically what I been knowing all this time and that is that I have to want BETTER enough to work with NOBODY BUT GOD....

Stepping out on my FAITH has proven to show me that GOD has LOVED ME all this time MORE than I LOVED ME, I just NEEDED to MOVE on my FAITH and TRUST IN HIM....

The SHALOM PEACE of GOD is over MY life, my home, my children, all that I do and all that I WILL do. If you DECLARE it GOD WILL give it to you on EVERY level and even levels that you didn't even know could be attained. If YOU can't make YOU happy and you can't hand yourself YOUR JOY, then baby you GOT TO ALLOW GOD to HAVE HIS WAY in your life..

GET YO-SELF (and YES I said YO-SELF) UP, GET OUT AND GET SOMETHING... Don't sit around and think about and question WHY things are not happening in your life, or even why you don't seem to be getting BLESSED with your blessings but EVERYONE else around you is.. SHUT UP ALL THE CRYING, CLEAR the POUND puppy faces AND BE ABOUT YOUR BUSINESS!!! GET YO-SELF TOGETHER so that GOD CAN DO~WHAT HE WANTS TO DO in YOUR LIFE... God did say PEACE be STILL, but he don't mean DON'T DO NOTHING, some of us have that scripture ALL MESSED up.. He telling you to SHUT YOUR MOUTH & BE STILL on the matter at hand, before you get yourself in something that you can't get out of. He NOT telling you to BE STILL and DON'T DO NOTHING WITH YOURSELF... No sweetie he NEED YOU to MOVE FORWARD on WHAT it is you are seeking from HIM... Be yourself STILL and be patient on what GOD is working out IN YOUR LIFE and be at PEACE knowing that GOD IS doing it. BE PATIENT and WORK towards it, and honey GOD WILL MAKE SURE IT HAPPENS for you, to you and BY YOU & HIM(GOD) working through it ALL TOGETHER...


My current status is being at PEACE with KNOWING that GOD is in CONTROL once I step out on MY FAITH and TRUST HIM...

Love is ALWAYS LOVE & TRUTH
Ruth the TRUTH