MAN UP~

This new week will begin with a new will, the will to simply want more in life. Not because we want more but because we NEED MORE!!! We can't continue to settle and allow those that are around us to settle, no we have to know that the will of GOD says so in our lives. We have to be determined to push ourselves beyond exhaustion to make life make sense for ourselves and we have to encourage those that we love to do the same.

PROVERBS (24:33-34)

33 A little sleep, a little slumber, a little folding of the hands to rest-
34 and poverty will come on you like a bandit and scarcity like an armed man.

How can you expect to eat but not work? What makes you think that things will happen simply because you got on your knees and prayed about it? Why do you consider yourself "living life" with the simple things that mean nothing, once you don't have them anymore?

I sit and I pay attention to the way people go about life and the train of thoughts that they develop about life, that makes their lives make sense to them and for them. These same people don't want more they actually don't mind pressing cruise control on their lives and sweeping away what is ACTUALLY going on in their lives. I see these things so clearly, because I, myself have been guilty of sleeping too long, sitting still and watching everything around me go even further into a hole than it all started off.

Yes, I have been broken down to a very low common denominator more then once actually. During those times I realized that me sleeping on a persons floors with their dogs and my two children, or me driving around in my car until I gathered up enough courage to ask if my children and I could spend just one night at someones home. Even staying in shelters and setting every inch of PRIDE that I had aside so that I can sit still long enough to figure out my life. I can take you deeper, hell I can even write a book about me at my lowest; and I can sit here now and type that I am far from my highest. The thing is it would take me longer then a blog can allow to rumble through my heartache, betrayal, crying days and nights, sleepless year after year.. Oh and did I mention heartaches?? Ha! My testimonies could bring a church full of playing "CHRISTIANS" to their knees crying out for forgiveness, and begging for God to create in them New Hearts.

Just KNOW that I didn't get this far, by being on my knees praying, and anything else that comes along with being on your knees.. No baby I not only had to pray myself through, and not only did I have others that REALLY cared praying me through; but I had to GET OFF MY LAZY BEHIND and make IT DO WHAT IT DO!! Yes I couldn't look around for mommy and daddy because they had they own issues, no I couldn't depend on my friends either simply because they WERE NOT OBLIGATED. It was ME & GOD and I HAD to do my part or I was going to FALL APART. See I had to put the bottles of champagne down, because they couldn't take away none of my pain. I could no longer do what I wanted to do, I had to do what NEEDED to be done. Simply put I HAD TO SURVIVE......

This cold world will eat you up and spit you out over and over and over again, and each and every time, you have to be fully equipped with the power of God and the will to FIGHT in order to survive. You can take it from ME, I know that it takes much more then the local clubs and the richest thugs to make it happen, it even takes more then you and your tightest crew to make it do what it needs to do.

Your FAITH is what has to carry you through EVERYTHING that you have to endure in this life. Your boys/girls don't have you, your lavish cars can't take you there, and the endless money you have in your accounts can't even prepare you for LIFE and the roads you have to travel. Make it happen for yourself, you just can't depend on anything or anyone to get you to where you need to be in life. If your praying and praying for things to happen or change in your life then YOU HAVE TO make them happen. At 30 you can't sit around and look over at mommy and daddy, shoot they might be sitting next to you looking at you asking you the same questions: What now, when are we, can I, or even when you think you can?????

I mean come on now, you know that life is really something when your parents are looking over at you (the kid) and asking you the questions. And heck in some cases if the tables are turned in that way SO WHAT, MAN UP about it all and DO WHAT YOU GOTTA DO.

I have learned through the years being on my own and watching the "adults" in my life as a kid, give up responsibilities. I have watched them look the other way and decide that life was too much for them; so they decided not to deal. I have been a child growing into a woman and learning life on my own with out the proper guidance of "parents".

I SURVIVED, and in doing so YES, I have made HUGE mistakes in life, I have even laid down too long and allowed myself to not only lose everything around me; but I lost ME..... I lost who I wanted to be and became EVERYTHING I swore I wouldn't be, because I allowed life to lay me down and I stayed there comfortable and all, I stayed and got too relaxed in my mess; it not only affected me but it also affected MY CHILDREN. I am currently still in survival mode and everything I do in MY LIFE has to make sense. Every step I take closer to being who GOD wants me to be is because MY LIFE DEPENDS ON IT, not because I might get a better house, bigger wardrobe and or a nicer car.... MY LIFE & THOSE AROUND ME, DEPEND ON ME....

Get up!!!! Don't lay too long and get comfortable because LIFE will kick you even lower then you ever thought you could go and you won't be able to get back up.

GROW UP & GET UP!!!!

F.Y.I. I put me out there so that YOU, can look at ME & not YOURSELF, I will allow you to see MY WOUNDS so you don't have to EXPOSE your OWN. You can even comment and judge WHAT and WHO has created the woman that is in me, just remember that YOU WILL RESPECT MY GANGSTA, due to it being nothing BUT the GOD in ME..



All of me is to GOD BE THE GLORY~

Love is ALWAYS LOVE & TRUTH
Ruth the TRUTH