There are times when I get exhausted from my thoughts. I get exhausted, yet I allow my thoughts to keep me up at night. I allow myself to be attacked by the spirit of confusion, when I know what I know, and I know that I know better.. I know that I serve an AWESOME God, and I know that HE IS:JEHOVAH, Jehovah-Jireh, Jehovah-Rophe, Jehovah-Nissi, Jehovah-M'Kaddesh, Jehovah-Elohim, Jehovah-Rohi, Jehovah-Tsidkenu, Jehovah-Shammah, Jehova-Sabaoth and he is even MORE than all of that... Yet I STILL allow my thoughts to exaust me..
Learning Patience~
I know that I expect a lot of things in life, when it comes to better; I expect a better outcome, a better start, a better in-between, a better end, and a better ME.. I expect things at times to happen when I am not actually making them happen for MYSELF. Yes, I am taking it to God and letting go and letting God; but I am actually "LETTING GO". Meaning I don't FIGHT for better, nor do I myself TRY to even move towards BETTER. Oh but this is what I expect, in my mind I even put it all together and it makes sense, yet I do NOTHING to move towards BETTER.
Yes, I want and expect a HUSBAND.
Yes, I expect the house of MY dreams.
Yes, I expect, want and NEED stability.
Yes, I expect more of MYSELF.
Yes, I expect maturity when a person deals with me.
And YES, my list of WHAT I expect can go on and on......
Then God answers me and all my "expectations" and CLEARLY shows and STATES nothing less than FACTS to ME:
Yes, honey I can give you ALL that you EXPECT to have and do. But can you first answer these questions for YOURSELF; then come and talk to me about you "expecting better"?
How do you "expect" this husband, this MAN that I have for you when you have nothing to bring to the table YOURSELF? Why would I hand you BOAZ, and you NOT together? What are you doing or even better, WHAT have you DONE to prepare yourself to be someones WIFE? If I were to put you in that house could you keep it? If you had the house of your "dreams" could you REALLY maintain the up keep of such a home? Sweetie IF you expect MATURITY from a person, then WHY do you continue to deal with/put yourself in the company of such IMMATURE people? Dear, if you are complicated to people, then WHAT about you keeps wanting to deal with SIMPLE people and their SIMPLE ways? You say you even would like a point in your life where you are "STABLE" well baby WHY you keep SETTLING for LESS? If you want to be more stable honey, then why won't you TRY HARDER TO DO BETTER and HAVE BETTER? So you DO expect more of yourself you say..... So WHY you don't start being THE HEAD and not the TAIL?? Why don't you get YOUR LAZY, narrow minded, don't want to move cause I might step on a crack and fall self UP and make it HAPPEN?
My cousin said it best that yes, God has a very FUNNY sense of HUMOR oh but at the same time HE IS SO SERIOUS. I am constantly "thinking" about what, how and when but I am too scared of WHAT IF..I have not pushed MYSELF further, it's ME that has been holding ME UP. What GOD has for me he HAS already, he just waiting on ME to get ME together enough so that I don't MESS UP, WHAT HE HAS for me and my life.
God has shown me that he has given me ALL the tools throughout my life and even the muscle to make things happen, I just didn't want to use the sharp and too heavy tools because I was worried about strain, cuts and bruises.. Ha! I was worried about STRAIN, CUTS AND BRUISES do you HEAR ME??? I SHOULD have been worried about the STRAIN, CUTS, BRUISES, HEARTACHE and WOUNDS that are declared OPEN at ALL times from NOT using the tools GOD gave me to use. I mean, I have sat myself in some stuff that has caused me to NEED HOSPITALIZATION and REHABILITATION. I look BACK on all that and I WASTED time, ENERGY, and ME on what and WHO was ASSISTING in the CONFUSION in my life.
Now I have come to a point in my life where I UNDERSTAND and KNOW that I can't DO THIS thing called LIFE on my own. No, I NEED EVERYTHING that GOD is to GUIDE ME through, I NEED to have FAITH that HE GOT ME. I mean WHO do I honestly think had ME ALL THIS TIME?? I know what I know and as I said before I KNOW BETTER!!! If GOD is for ME, then WHO and WHAT can be against ME?? I, am currently doing MY part and I realize basically what I been knowing all this time and that is that I have to want BETTER enough to work with NOBODY BUT GOD....
Stepping out on my FAITH has proven to show me that GOD has LOVED ME all this time MORE than I LOVED ME, I just NEEDED to MOVE on my FAITH and TRUST IN HIM....
The SHALOM PEACE of GOD is over MY life, my home, my children, all that I do and all that I WILL do. If you DECLARE it GOD WILL give it to you on EVERY level and even levels that you didn't even know could be attained. If YOU can't make YOU happy and you can't hand yourself YOUR JOY, then baby you GOT TO ALLOW GOD to HAVE HIS WAY in your life..
GET YO-SELF (and YES I said YO-SELF) UP, GET OUT AND GET SOMETHING... Don't sit around and think about and question WHY things are not happening in your life, or even why you don't seem to be getting BLESSED with your blessings but EVERYONE else around you is.. SHUT UP ALL THE CRYING, CLEAR the POUND puppy faces AND BE ABOUT YOUR BUSINESS!!! GET YO-SELF TOGETHER so that GOD CAN DO~WHAT HE WANTS TO DO in YOUR LIFE... God did say PEACE be STILL, but he don't mean DON'T DO NOTHING, some of us have that scripture ALL MESSED up.. He telling you to SHUT YOUR MOUTH & BE STILL on the matter at hand, before you get yourself in something that you can't get out of. He NOT telling you to BE STILL and DON'T DO NOTHING WITH YOURSELF... No sweetie he NEED YOU to MOVE FORWARD on WHAT it is you are seeking from HIM... Be yourself STILL and be patient on what GOD is working out IN YOUR LIFE and be at PEACE knowing that GOD IS doing it. BE PATIENT and WORK towards it, and honey GOD WILL MAKE SURE IT HAPPENS for you, to you and BY YOU & HIM(GOD) working through it ALL TOGETHER...
My current status is being at PEACE with KNOWING that GOD is in CONTROL once I step out on MY FAITH and TRUST HIM...
Love is ALWAYS LOVE & TRUTH
Ruth the TRUTH
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Hand Prints
Everyday to me is a step closer to what GOD has in stored for my life. So I think through out each day about the things that I could possibly be doing wrong to prevent me from my full elevation. Elevation rather it be spiritually, mentally, physically, financially, and emotionally; all of that elevation is tied together. Simple things can't continue to keep me tied in bondage.
Staying in bondage can keep you even from yourself, and will allow you to not even acknowledge a little bit your plan in life. Life's plans can be altered by bondage from simple things, in whatever way I put it these things are blocking you from SO MUCH happening in YOUR LIFE in SO MANY areas of your life..
Relationship Bondage~
For a child relationship starts with their parents, either the parent keeps that child or walks away.From that point in a child's life they learn how to determine how to cope with relationships. A person learns to deal with the SHIFTS in relationships and begin to understand that the only thing that is constant in many of our relationships are CHANGE.
My first love was my Step Father, whom at the time I did not even consider the step at the beginning of him. He was simply my Father and as a little girl I was in love with this man. All I knew was that he loved me back just as much as I loved him. Nothing in my child like heart and thoughts could have prepared me for separation from him, nor could I be coached into understanding not only were we separated but he could walk away without looking back. A hurt that can't even be described in words, yet a strengthening that can't be broken down. From that relationship on I as a girl growing into my woman-hood built this wall that was layered with brick, steel,and logs that wall allowed me to only let people in so much, and only enough. When ever I would feel that things were too complicated and should not be; then I would shut them out because nothing about LOVE has ever been complicated to me.
Dealing with my own father, whom I came to know more during my teenage years and to me he has always been exactly WHO he is. Don't get me wrong he CAN be a good man, he can be a kind and giving person even. When he had the chance to make his first impression with me, it was then another blow to who was already set on the other side of a wall that could easily sit him on the opposite side. From that point on my emotions had been married to the two "MEN" that had the opportunity of the FIRST impression of WHAT & HOW most men think and are, how they operate and how they shut down and shut out... These were MY FATHERS~
Hand Prints~
Every time I found myself in a NEW "relationship" through out my life, at the end of those relationships I found myself still BOUND by the EMOTIONAL ATTACHMENTS to that person. Even now, I continue to look back and miss some him, and him happens to be WHO my thoughts are on at that moment. I let go of the physical and I even let go of the contact, through the years I couldn't let go of the way I felt about him. I wrote him letters and never mailed them off, I sent him emails to just check that he is still ok, I text to say happy birthday every year, and I even run into him here and there. I see him during football season, I see him during basketball season, off season I see him and my emotions push me the other way. I see him in the streets, and I see him every Friday and Sunday, I see him in my sleep and I see him when I am WEAK. Gosh!!
The hand prints from him left things foggy and I been trying to clear things out of my system so that there is nothing about him that I am attached to. Being attached/bound in this way has caused Ruth's HUSBAND to be DELAYED/pushed further away. See I MARRIED him emotionally each and every time I was with him, and in return that took away emotions that are to be fully given to MY BOAZ. Giving myself sucked me dry spiritually, to where I had to shut myself down emotionally when it came to men, him, and anyone else that was draining me emotionally and spiritually....
Being that my heart is connected to my spirit and my spirit helps to develop my wisdom, I have had to take myself through a THOROUGH CLEANSING period in my life. During this cleansing, I have been able to forgive, let go, and move on from every him that bound me and anyone else that had me bound. Forgiving these people that were in my life allowed me to also let them go and let them go in a way that doesn't bother me anymore. Yes, each and EVERY TIME "HE" walked away it bothered my spirit and it took from me what at that time I THOUGHT to be the better part of me. THE DEVIL IS A LIAR!!! The BETTER part of me I didn't see, because it was NEVER for me to give that to ANYONE other than WHO GOD has picked for me.
The fathers that are and were in my life, assisted in me realizing that men are sometimes simple creatures and what they look at in life as complications, they see it to be more fit to walk away then to stay. Men can shut you out so easy because they start at their own children. If it is so easy as to turn away from, walk away from and reject your own DNA then what makes a woman feel bitter at the fact that he didn't decide to stay? When you have run across a "man" that has had NO FIGHT about HIMSELF all his life, don't expect to come along and feel that you can add consistency to his life.
So yes now I walk away easy from a "dating" situation or you might even say a possible relationship, that's only because I have learned to let go of what is not good for me. I am learning that PATIENTLY waiting is what makes sense for MY LIFE. I need for these windows to clear up of these hand prints anyhow so that when BOAZ is looking through them he CAN SEE ME.. I also know that I no longer NEED that wall of emotional protection because those people that have hurt me and wounded my spirits are no longer holding the same position that they had in my life. Through this process, I am able to tell the real from the fake and LOVE from hate. Through it ALL, I THANK GOD for guiding me, protecting me and keeping me; even those times when I was losing ME.....
I am in REPAIR, I'm not together but YES, I am getting there~
Love is ALWAYS LOVE & TRUTH
Ruth the TRUTH
Staying in bondage can keep you even from yourself, and will allow you to not even acknowledge a little bit your plan in life. Life's plans can be altered by bondage from simple things, in whatever way I put it these things are blocking you from SO MUCH happening in YOUR LIFE in SO MANY areas of your life..
Relationship Bondage~
For a child relationship starts with their parents, either the parent keeps that child or walks away.From that point in a child's life they learn how to determine how to cope with relationships. A person learns to deal with the SHIFTS in relationships and begin to understand that the only thing that is constant in many of our relationships are CHANGE.
My first love was my Step Father, whom at the time I did not even consider the step at the beginning of him. He was simply my Father and as a little girl I was in love with this man. All I knew was that he loved me back just as much as I loved him. Nothing in my child like heart and thoughts could have prepared me for separation from him, nor could I be coached into understanding not only were we separated but he could walk away without looking back. A hurt that can't even be described in words, yet a strengthening that can't be broken down. From that relationship on I as a girl growing into my woman-hood built this wall that was layered with brick, steel,and logs that wall allowed me to only let people in so much, and only enough. When ever I would feel that things were too complicated and should not be; then I would shut them out because nothing about LOVE has ever been complicated to me.
Dealing with my own father, whom I came to know more during my teenage years and to me he has always been exactly WHO he is. Don't get me wrong he CAN be a good man, he can be a kind and giving person even. When he had the chance to make his first impression with me, it was then another blow to who was already set on the other side of a wall that could easily sit him on the opposite side. From that point on my emotions had been married to the two "MEN" that had the opportunity of the FIRST impression of WHAT & HOW most men think and are, how they operate and how they shut down and shut out... These were MY FATHERS~
Hand Prints~
Every time I found myself in a NEW "relationship" through out my life, at the end of those relationships I found myself still BOUND by the EMOTIONAL ATTACHMENTS to that person. Even now, I continue to look back and miss some him, and him happens to be WHO my thoughts are on at that moment. I let go of the physical and I even let go of the contact, through the years I couldn't let go of the way I felt about him. I wrote him letters and never mailed them off, I sent him emails to just check that he is still ok, I text to say happy birthday every year, and I even run into him here and there. I see him during football season, I see him during basketball season, off season I see him and my emotions push me the other way. I see him in the streets, and I see him every Friday and Sunday, I see him in my sleep and I see him when I am WEAK. Gosh!!
The hand prints from him left things foggy and I been trying to clear things out of my system so that there is nothing about him that I am attached to. Being attached/bound in this way has caused Ruth's HUSBAND to be DELAYED/pushed further away. See I MARRIED him emotionally each and every time I was with him, and in return that took away emotions that are to be fully given to MY BOAZ. Giving myself sucked me dry spiritually, to where I had to shut myself down emotionally when it came to men, him, and anyone else that was draining me emotionally and spiritually....
Being that my heart is connected to my spirit and my spirit helps to develop my wisdom, I have had to take myself through a THOROUGH CLEANSING period in my life. During this cleansing, I have been able to forgive, let go, and move on from every him that bound me and anyone else that had me bound. Forgiving these people that were in my life allowed me to also let them go and let them go in a way that doesn't bother me anymore. Yes, each and EVERY TIME "HE" walked away it bothered my spirit and it took from me what at that time I THOUGHT to be the better part of me. THE DEVIL IS A LIAR!!! The BETTER part of me I didn't see, because it was NEVER for me to give that to ANYONE other than WHO GOD has picked for me.
The fathers that are and were in my life, assisted in me realizing that men are sometimes simple creatures and what they look at in life as complications, they see it to be more fit to walk away then to stay. Men can shut you out so easy because they start at their own children. If it is so easy as to turn away from, walk away from and reject your own DNA then what makes a woman feel bitter at the fact that he didn't decide to stay? When you have run across a "man" that has had NO FIGHT about HIMSELF all his life, don't expect to come along and feel that you can add consistency to his life.
So yes now I walk away easy from a "dating" situation or you might even say a possible relationship, that's only because I have learned to let go of what is not good for me. I am learning that PATIENTLY waiting is what makes sense for MY LIFE. I need for these windows to clear up of these hand prints anyhow so that when BOAZ is looking through them he CAN SEE ME.. I also know that I no longer NEED that wall of emotional protection because those people that have hurt me and wounded my spirits are no longer holding the same position that they had in my life. Through this process, I am able to tell the real from the fake and LOVE from hate. Through it ALL, I THANK GOD for guiding me, protecting me and keeping me; even those times when I was losing ME.....
I am in REPAIR, I'm not together but YES, I am getting there~
Love is ALWAYS LOVE & TRUTH
Ruth the TRUTH
Monday, March 22, 2010
MAN UP~
This new week will begin with a new will, the will to simply want more in life. Not because we want more but because we NEED MORE!!! We can't continue to settle and allow those that are around us to settle, no we have to know that the will of GOD says so in our lives. We have to be determined to push ourselves beyond exhaustion to make life make sense for ourselves and we have to encourage those that we love to do the same.
PROVERBS (24:33-34)
33 A little sleep, a little slumber, a little folding of the hands to rest-
34 and poverty will come on you like a bandit and scarcity like an armed man.
How can you expect to eat but not work? What makes you think that things will happen simply because you got on your knees and prayed about it? Why do you consider yourself "living life" with the simple things that mean nothing, once you don't have them anymore?
I sit and I pay attention to the way people go about life and the train of thoughts that they develop about life, that makes their lives make sense to them and for them. These same people don't want more they actually don't mind pressing cruise control on their lives and sweeping away what is ACTUALLY going on in their lives. I see these things so clearly, because I, myself have been guilty of sleeping too long, sitting still and watching everything around me go even further into a hole than it all started off.
Yes, I have been broken down to a very low common denominator more then once actually. During those times I realized that me sleeping on a persons floors with their dogs and my two children, or me driving around in my car until I gathered up enough courage to ask if my children and I could spend just one night at someones home. Even staying in shelters and setting every inch of PRIDE that I had aside so that I can sit still long enough to figure out my life. I can take you deeper, hell I can even write a book about me at my lowest; and I can sit here now and type that I am far from my highest. The thing is it would take me longer then a blog can allow to rumble through my heartache, betrayal, crying days and nights, sleepless year after year.. Oh and did I mention heartaches?? Ha! My testimonies could bring a church full of playing "CHRISTIANS" to their knees crying out for forgiveness, and begging for God to create in them New Hearts.
Just KNOW that I didn't get this far, by being on my knees praying, and anything else that comes along with being on your knees.. No baby I not only had to pray myself through, and not only did I have others that REALLY cared praying me through; but I had to GET OFF MY LAZY BEHIND and make IT DO WHAT IT DO!! Yes I couldn't look around for mommy and daddy because they had they own issues, no I couldn't depend on my friends either simply because they WERE NOT OBLIGATED. It was ME & GOD and I HAD to do my part or I was going to FALL APART. See I had to put the bottles of champagne down, because they couldn't take away none of my pain. I could no longer do what I wanted to do, I had to do what NEEDED to be done. Simply put I HAD TO SURVIVE......
This cold world will eat you up and spit you out over and over and over again, and each and every time, you have to be fully equipped with the power of God and the will to FIGHT in order to survive. You can take it from ME, I know that it takes much more then the local clubs and the richest thugs to make it happen, it even takes more then you and your tightest crew to make it do what it needs to do.
Your FAITH is what has to carry you through EVERYTHING that you have to endure in this life. Your boys/girls don't have you, your lavish cars can't take you there, and the endless money you have in your accounts can't even prepare you for LIFE and the roads you have to travel. Make it happen for yourself, you just can't depend on anything or anyone to get you to where you need to be in life. If your praying and praying for things to happen or change in your life then YOU HAVE TO make them happen. At 30 you can't sit around and look over at mommy and daddy, shoot they might be sitting next to you looking at you asking you the same questions: What now, when are we, can I, or even when you think you can?????
I mean come on now, you know that life is really something when your parents are looking over at you (the kid) and asking you the questions. And heck in some cases if the tables are turned in that way SO WHAT, MAN UP about it all and DO WHAT YOU GOTTA DO.
I have learned through the years being on my own and watching the "adults" in my life as a kid, give up responsibilities. I have watched them look the other way and decide that life was too much for them; so they decided not to deal. I have been a child growing into a woman and learning life on my own with out the proper guidance of "parents".
I SURVIVED, and in doing so YES, I have made HUGE mistakes in life, I have even laid down too long and allowed myself to not only lose everything around me; but I lost ME..... I lost who I wanted to be and became EVERYTHING I swore I wouldn't be, because I allowed life to lay me down and I stayed there comfortable and all, I stayed and got too relaxed in my mess; it not only affected me but it also affected MY CHILDREN. I am currently still in survival mode and everything I do in MY LIFE has to make sense. Every step I take closer to being who GOD wants me to be is because MY LIFE DEPENDS ON IT, not because I might get a better house, bigger wardrobe and or a nicer car.... MY LIFE & THOSE AROUND ME, DEPEND ON ME....
Get up!!!! Don't lay too long and get comfortable because LIFE will kick you even lower then you ever thought you could go and you won't be able to get back up.
GROW UP & GET UP!!!!
F.Y.I. I put me out there so that YOU, can look at ME & not YOURSELF, I will allow you to see MY WOUNDS so you don't have to EXPOSE your OWN. You can even comment and judge WHAT and WHO has created the woman that is in me, just remember that YOU WILL RESPECT MY GANGSTA, due to it being nothing BUT the GOD in ME..
All of me is to GOD BE THE GLORY~
Love is ALWAYS LOVE & TRUTH
Ruth the TRUTH
PROVERBS (24:33-34)
33 A little sleep, a little slumber, a little folding of the hands to rest-
34 and poverty will come on you like a bandit and scarcity like an armed man.
How can you expect to eat but not work? What makes you think that things will happen simply because you got on your knees and prayed about it? Why do you consider yourself "living life" with the simple things that mean nothing, once you don't have them anymore?
I sit and I pay attention to the way people go about life and the train of thoughts that they develop about life, that makes their lives make sense to them and for them. These same people don't want more they actually don't mind pressing cruise control on their lives and sweeping away what is ACTUALLY going on in their lives. I see these things so clearly, because I, myself have been guilty of sleeping too long, sitting still and watching everything around me go even further into a hole than it all started off.
Yes, I have been broken down to a very low common denominator more then once actually. During those times I realized that me sleeping on a persons floors with their dogs and my two children, or me driving around in my car until I gathered up enough courage to ask if my children and I could spend just one night at someones home. Even staying in shelters and setting every inch of PRIDE that I had aside so that I can sit still long enough to figure out my life. I can take you deeper, hell I can even write a book about me at my lowest; and I can sit here now and type that I am far from my highest. The thing is it would take me longer then a blog can allow to rumble through my heartache, betrayal, crying days and nights, sleepless year after year.. Oh and did I mention heartaches?? Ha! My testimonies could bring a church full of playing "CHRISTIANS" to their knees crying out for forgiveness, and begging for God to create in them New Hearts.
Just KNOW that I didn't get this far, by being on my knees praying, and anything else that comes along with being on your knees.. No baby I not only had to pray myself through, and not only did I have others that REALLY cared praying me through; but I had to GET OFF MY LAZY BEHIND and make IT DO WHAT IT DO!! Yes I couldn't look around for mommy and daddy because they had they own issues, no I couldn't depend on my friends either simply because they WERE NOT OBLIGATED. It was ME & GOD and I HAD to do my part or I was going to FALL APART. See I had to put the bottles of champagne down, because they couldn't take away none of my pain. I could no longer do what I wanted to do, I had to do what NEEDED to be done. Simply put I HAD TO SURVIVE......
This cold world will eat you up and spit you out over and over and over again, and each and every time, you have to be fully equipped with the power of God and the will to FIGHT in order to survive. You can take it from ME, I know that it takes much more then the local clubs and the richest thugs to make it happen, it even takes more then you and your tightest crew to make it do what it needs to do.
Your FAITH is what has to carry you through EVERYTHING that you have to endure in this life. Your boys/girls don't have you, your lavish cars can't take you there, and the endless money you have in your accounts can't even prepare you for LIFE and the roads you have to travel. Make it happen for yourself, you just can't depend on anything or anyone to get you to where you need to be in life. If your praying and praying for things to happen or change in your life then YOU HAVE TO make them happen. At 30 you can't sit around and look over at mommy and daddy, shoot they might be sitting next to you looking at you asking you the same questions: What now, when are we, can I, or even when you think you can?????
I mean come on now, you know that life is really something when your parents are looking over at you (the kid) and asking you the questions. And heck in some cases if the tables are turned in that way SO WHAT, MAN UP about it all and DO WHAT YOU GOTTA DO.
I have learned through the years being on my own and watching the "adults" in my life as a kid, give up responsibilities. I have watched them look the other way and decide that life was too much for them; so they decided not to deal. I have been a child growing into a woman and learning life on my own with out the proper guidance of "parents".
I SURVIVED, and in doing so YES, I have made HUGE mistakes in life, I have even laid down too long and allowed myself to not only lose everything around me; but I lost ME..... I lost who I wanted to be and became EVERYTHING I swore I wouldn't be, because I allowed life to lay me down and I stayed there comfortable and all, I stayed and got too relaxed in my mess; it not only affected me but it also affected MY CHILDREN. I am currently still in survival mode and everything I do in MY LIFE has to make sense. Every step I take closer to being who GOD wants me to be is because MY LIFE DEPENDS ON IT, not because I might get a better house, bigger wardrobe and or a nicer car.... MY LIFE & THOSE AROUND ME, DEPEND ON ME....
Get up!!!! Don't lay too long and get comfortable because LIFE will kick you even lower then you ever thought you could go and you won't be able to get back up.
GROW UP & GET UP!!!!
F.Y.I. I put me out there so that YOU, can look at ME & not YOURSELF, I will allow you to see MY WOUNDS so you don't have to EXPOSE your OWN. You can even comment and judge WHAT and WHO has created the woman that is in me, just remember that YOU WILL RESPECT MY GANGSTA, due to it being nothing BUT the GOD in ME..
All of me is to GOD BE THE GLORY~
Love is ALWAYS LOVE & TRUTH
Ruth the TRUTH
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Riches are Meaningless~
Well Spring is shining through and the HEAT is ON, with that being said it's time to bring about my thoughts on people in heat. Yes, that is what I said "PEOPLE IN HEAT"... See now we are able to sit back and view a different side of people; we can see what the summer can bring out of them. Oh because the Summer surly brings about people you have never seen on the scene, as well as a new and improved individual who has been on the scene, but they have upgraded themselves..
It's a funny thing how my God comes to my level and just breaks things down to the lowest common denominator, so that it can all make sense. Allow me to break it down even lower than that for you so that when you look around this summer and your sizing up the fattest pockets, most expensive ride, heaviest jewelery and flyest gear; you are able to distinguish the MEN from the boys.
ECCLESIASTES (5:12 & 6:12)
5:12~The sleep of a laborer is sweet, whether he eats little or much, but the abundance of a rich man permits him no sleep.
6:12~For who knows what is good for a man in life, during the few and meaningless days he passes through like a shadow? Who can tell him what will happen under the sun after he is gone?
Ha!! Chew & digest that word as well cooked, yet so tender meat. If you were to apply that to your life and what goes on around you it will fill your belly(soul) with the WISDOM & UNDERSTANDING of certain routine in your life and those that are around you.
So let's take a ride down MY BLOCK, when I say my block; I am showing and telling you only what I know for myself. I have been there, done that and even gone back time after time to do it again.
People in Heat~
It's time for the summer ballers to rise and hit the scene, you know the ones that tried they BEST to save up all year to paint their bike or get a new one, cop a new whip, invest in a new wardrobe and tie down one of the baddest chic’s "to ride on the back of their bikes".. These are the brother who hardly have a pot to piss in and a window to throw it out of, the same brother who after the summer sun has dried up all their income they go into hibernation for the remainder of the seasons. The streets know how much the paint job on his bike cost and see the whips he so effortlessly push through the neighborhoods simply because he wants you to. He wants you to know and see as a matter of fact he spent the other seasons planning on how he is going to kill the streets off with what he been putting together. This same man crawls back into his apartment or rented home that can't be claimed as property of his, but as property of someone else.
This same man can't rest well at night rather in a hotel room away from everyone or in his own home. He can't sleep because there are others that sit back and watch him get what he has, so that they can take it away or even take him away. Men that experience these restless nights can't sleep well with the women they fall into bed with either because they can't trust if she is there for him or after what he has just like the next person.. The maturity level of most of these seasonal cat's out in these streets can't even IMAGINE life on the level of a MAN that works hard, invest, and worships God verses these streets, the money, the sex & women. They get simple thrills from simple things such as an entorauge, chic's flocking when they want and how they want, along with the things that money can buy them.
Us women flock to this though, we want the crew that is on top this summer and we already forgot about the on top crew from last summer and the summers before. Chic's looking around and can smell the money, and they crave that street fame. He can be married and all but these chic's don't care they will step on whoever toes to get what they want. Simple chic's doing simple things to get a position in his life even if they can't be his wife. They just want what his money can buy, hell it's so bad now these women don't even care about spending time, nor do they consider the fact that summer only last a short amount of time.
What women don't undertsand is when that man is faced with serious time are you down then? When that man is pushing daisys because the next up coming crew shut him down; are you still down? Are you still down when the stick up kids come kicking the door in on you, simply because they feel like you holding for your boy? WILL YOU be down when the money is gone, there is nomore crew and the streets don't ring his name anymore????
See the summer brings out some of the most simple people, and we don't mind because really all most of us are looking for is a good time, on someone else's dime. We don't care that we should be worth more then just the summer time and these seasonal ballers can't look at life being and meaning more than the chump change that they gather up to be able to function at the functions for the summer. These same people go away for the winter & fall, because they have to spend time getting back on their feet from the loss they took over the summer trying to ball..
F.Y.I. If he got it then it's not just seasonal with him,it's always him and he is able to come out year around and have a good time, flow show and all that comes along with "having it"!!! If he is BLESSED financially by God then the simple things such as what the next man has and what the fly chic's want won't have any meaning to a "MANS" wealth or life. Honestly when it is all said and done NO ONE REMEMBERS YOU ANYWAY.........
Love is ALWAYS LOVE & TRUTH
Ruth the TRUTH
It's a funny thing how my God comes to my level and just breaks things down to the lowest common denominator, so that it can all make sense. Allow me to break it down even lower than that for you so that when you look around this summer and your sizing up the fattest pockets, most expensive ride, heaviest jewelery and flyest gear; you are able to distinguish the MEN from the boys.
ECCLESIASTES (5:12 & 6:12)
5:12~The sleep of a laborer is sweet, whether he eats little or much, but the abundance of a rich man permits him no sleep.
6:12~For who knows what is good for a man in life, during the few and meaningless days he passes through like a shadow? Who can tell him what will happen under the sun after he is gone?
Ha!! Chew & digest that word as well cooked, yet so tender meat. If you were to apply that to your life and what goes on around you it will fill your belly(soul) with the WISDOM & UNDERSTANDING of certain routine in your life and those that are around you.
So let's take a ride down MY BLOCK, when I say my block; I am showing and telling you only what I know for myself. I have been there, done that and even gone back time after time to do it again.
People in Heat~
It's time for the summer ballers to rise and hit the scene, you know the ones that tried they BEST to save up all year to paint their bike or get a new one, cop a new whip, invest in a new wardrobe and tie down one of the baddest chic’s "to ride on the back of their bikes".. These are the brother who hardly have a pot to piss in and a window to throw it out of, the same brother who after the summer sun has dried up all their income they go into hibernation for the remainder of the seasons. The streets know how much the paint job on his bike cost and see the whips he so effortlessly push through the neighborhoods simply because he wants you to. He wants you to know and see as a matter of fact he spent the other seasons planning on how he is going to kill the streets off with what he been putting together. This same man crawls back into his apartment or rented home that can't be claimed as property of his, but as property of someone else.
This same man can't rest well at night rather in a hotel room away from everyone or in his own home. He can't sleep because there are others that sit back and watch him get what he has, so that they can take it away or even take him away. Men that experience these restless nights can't sleep well with the women they fall into bed with either because they can't trust if she is there for him or after what he has just like the next person.. The maturity level of most of these seasonal cat's out in these streets can't even IMAGINE life on the level of a MAN that works hard, invest, and worships God verses these streets, the money, the sex & women. They get simple thrills from simple things such as an entorauge, chic's flocking when they want and how they want, along with the things that money can buy them.
Us women flock to this though, we want the crew that is on top this summer and we already forgot about the on top crew from last summer and the summers before. Chic's looking around and can smell the money, and they crave that street fame. He can be married and all but these chic's don't care they will step on whoever toes to get what they want. Simple chic's doing simple things to get a position in his life even if they can't be his wife. They just want what his money can buy, hell it's so bad now these women don't even care about spending time, nor do they consider the fact that summer only last a short amount of time.
What women don't undertsand is when that man is faced with serious time are you down then? When that man is pushing daisys because the next up coming crew shut him down; are you still down? Are you still down when the stick up kids come kicking the door in on you, simply because they feel like you holding for your boy? WILL YOU be down when the money is gone, there is nomore crew and the streets don't ring his name anymore????
See the summer brings out some of the most simple people, and we don't mind because really all most of us are looking for is a good time, on someone else's dime. We don't care that we should be worth more then just the summer time and these seasonal ballers can't look at life being and meaning more than the chump change that they gather up to be able to function at the functions for the summer. These same people go away for the winter & fall, because they have to spend time getting back on their feet from the loss they took over the summer trying to ball..
F.Y.I. If he got it then it's not just seasonal with him,it's always him and he is able to come out year around and have a good time, flow show and all that comes along with "having it"!!! If he is BLESSED financially by God then the simple things such as what the next man has and what the fly chic's want won't have any meaning to a "MANS" wealth or life. Honestly when it is all said and done NO ONE REMEMBERS YOU ANYWAY.........
Love is ALWAYS LOVE & TRUTH
Ruth the TRUTH
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
It is WHAT it IS~
Today I woke up to many thoughts as I always do, so many that it would take volumes of books in order to get them all out there. At the same time my thoughts are MY THOUGHTS and MOST of the time they are EVERYONE ELSE'S thoughts also. The difference between me and them is I feel the need to speak on it. Yes, yes even if these words/thoughts offend you or places your spirit in an uncomfortable place. Let's just be real for once and say that people NEED to know that they are not fooling anyone but themselves.. So allow me to journey through thoughts of mines and respond to these thoughts; while doing so feel free to CHECK YOUR SPIRIT/YOURSELF in the process. It is not hard to do I do this with myself ALL THE TIME, see I stay checking me especially when I am thrown off balance.. Follow through and as you read please feel free to CHECK YOURSELF, hahaha or better yet ALLOW ME TO DO IT FOR YOU!!
IT IS WHAT IT IS~
When you GROW into a certain place in your life, you require MORE; simply because MORE is required of you. Mere "for the moments" are just brief encounters that BLOCK what is actually FOR YOU. Can't continue to WASTE your time with those that are willing to take the bare (simple or essential)minimum, of you when YOU have SO MUCH MORE to offer.
If you are dealing with a man or woman that has something going on with them and in their life that you can't really put your finger on.. Then YES you are right there is something going on alright, and you can't put your finger on it BUT your intuition is telling you that all finger are pointing to the door so GET YOURSELF OUT OF THAT MESS.. But NO, you stay and you continue to TRY TRY TRY; while each time you try the situation get more and more hurtful to you and toward you.. Se you the ONLY one that is being hurt in this matter, ok yeah him or her will come back pleading confusion on this "relationship" and they will say they want you to stay, oh and they never want to lose you, let's not forget that they "LOVE" them some you..
Such SIMPLE and SILLY people we are. YES the nut is confused, of course he or she is; they confused as to WHY and HOW they got themselves this involved with you while in THEY MARRIAGE, FULL BLOWN RELATIONSHIP with someone else.. They do want you to stay, yep sure do but are you willing to stay under their conditions being that they are in something else that was before you and will be AFTER YOU?? Ok so they "LOVE" you now oh and they feel torn, WAKE THE HELL UP.... It is not LOVE, it's LUST yes it's I LOVE what you do to me and for me because he/she don't do what YOU DO.. Ha! While you settling and giving your all and heck you even throwing EXTRA on it, doing things that you ain't NEVER done before to keep this thing right here satisfied and here with you.
JUST SAY IT!!!! You want to be there because you are an insecure individual that feels like if you let that go then what are your options...??? Your are a person that feels like you just HAVE to be with someone, because you just can't IMAGINE being alone and by yourself long enough to LOVE YOURSELF and get to KNOW YOURSELF... That is just not an option for you. You rather SETTLE & you don't mind settling for WHAT is not even WORTH you dealing with and being in. See many people don't even recognize their WORTH until after you have wasted all that time and energy with what/WHO was not WORTH all of that to begin with.
The bible clearly states in (MATTHEW 7:6)
"Do not give dogs what is sacred;do not throw your pearls to swine. If you do, they may trample them under their feet, and then turn and tear you to pieces."
On that note ALONE i WILL LEAVE THE REST OF MY THOUGHTS FOR ANOTHER DAY AND TIME, hahahaha, it seems that this one thought alone I could do the first volume of many books.. You know Loves, it is so SIMPLE yet WE make it all so COMPLICATED by not LOVING ourselves ENOUGH to want more and DEMAND more from people. We have to also understand that when and if we don't get what it is we DESERVE then WE MOVE ON & LET GO...
Until next time,
Love is ALWAYS LOVE & TRUTH
Xoxo RUTH the TRUTH~
IT IS WHAT IT IS~
When you GROW into a certain place in your life, you require MORE; simply because MORE is required of you. Mere "for the moments" are just brief encounters that BLOCK what is actually FOR YOU. Can't continue to WASTE your time with those that are willing to take the bare (simple or essential)minimum, of you when YOU have SO MUCH MORE to offer.
If you are dealing with a man or woman that has something going on with them and in their life that you can't really put your finger on.. Then YES you are right there is something going on alright, and you can't put your finger on it BUT your intuition is telling you that all finger are pointing to the door so GET YOURSELF OUT OF THAT MESS.. But NO, you stay and you continue to TRY TRY TRY; while each time you try the situation get more and more hurtful to you and toward you.. Se you the ONLY one that is being hurt in this matter, ok yeah him or her will come back pleading confusion on this "relationship" and they will say they want you to stay, oh and they never want to lose you, let's not forget that they "LOVE" them some you..
Such SIMPLE and SILLY people we are. YES the nut is confused, of course he or she is; they confused as to WHY and HOW they got themselves this involved with you while in THEY MARRIAGE, FULL BLOWN RELATIONSHIP with someone else.. They do want you to stay, yep sure do but are you willing to stay under their conditions being that they are in something else that was before you and will be AFTER YOU?? Ok so they "LOVE" you now oh and they feel torn, WAKE THE HELL UP.... It is not LOVE, it's LUST yes it's I LOVE what you do to me and for me because he/she don't do what YOU DO.. Ha! While you settling and giving your all and heck you even throwing EXTRA on it, doing things that you ain't NEVER done before to keep this thing right here satisfied and here with you.
JUST SAY IT!!!! You want to be there because you are an insecure individual that feels like if you let that go then what are your options...??? Your are a person that feels like you just HAVE to be with someone, because you just can't IMAGINE being alone and by yourself long enough to LOVE YOURSELF and get to KNOW YOURSELF... That is just not an option for you. You rather SETTLE & you don't mind settling for WHAT is not even WORTH you dealing with and being in. See many people don't even recognize their WORTH until after you have wasted all that time and energy with what/WHO was not WORTH all of that to begin with.
The bible clearly states in (MATTHEW 7:6)
"Do not give dogs what is sacred;do not throw your pearls to swine. If you do, they may trample them under their feet, and then turn and tear you to pieces."
On that note ALONE i WILL LEAVE THE REST OF MY THOUGHTS FOR ANOTHER DAY AND TIME, hahahaha, it seems that this one thought alone I could do the first volume of many books.. You know Loves, it is so SIMPLE yet WE make it all so COMPLICATED by not LOVING ourselves ENOUGH to want more and DEMAND more from people. We have to also understand that when and if we don't get what it is we DESERVE then WE MOVE ON & LET GO...
Until next time,
Love is ALWAYS LOVE & TRUTH
Xoxo RUTH the TRUTH~
Monday, March 15, 2010
Rejecting WISDOM~
With a feeling of NEW BEGINNINGS in my life, I can't help but to look through the pages of my life and begin to DIGEST the MEAT that GOD has given ME to chew on through out my life. All the times God wanted to point out something to me and I either ignored him getting my attention or I simply wanted things to be MY WAY.. If I had ONLY given my undivided attention from the beginning; my elevation in life & spiritually would be an elevation that I now look at & feel is unattainable for myself.. Yes of course certain elevation is unattainable for ME by ME, oh but NOTHING is unattainable for and by my GOD. Where I feel I can't be elevated to; God wakes me up each day and shows me that if I just take my time, be patient, watch, listen and want the understanding that he is so PLAINLY speaking into my life. Then and only THEN will I be able to be elevated to what I feel is unattainable....
Speaking from the book of (Proverbs 1:20-33~2:1-6)
22"How long will you simple ones love your simple ways?How long will mockers delight in mockery and fools hate knowledge?
23"If you had responded to my rebuke, I would have poured out my heart to you and made my thoughts known to you."
24"But since you rejected me when I called and no one gave heed when I stretched out my hand,25since you ignored all my advice and would not accept my rebuke,I in turn will laugh at your disaster;"
33"but whoever listens to me will live in safety and be at ease, without fear of harm."
2
5"Then you will understand the fear of the Lord and find the knowledge of God."
6 "For the Lord gives wisdom, and from his mouth come knowledge and understanding."
See God shows up & he answers our doubt, questions, and even confirms what it is about that something or someone that hands us fear even. Now the question is DO WE REALLY WANT TO KNOW, WHAT WE ALREADY KNOW (do we want GOD to confirm these things for us)?? Some can say yes to that, while other bite nails and shake their head both yes and no in the same instance; while some simply say no.
How DARE us know what we know, then GOD further let's us KNOW and still go AGAINST GOD???? He WILL SNATCH that thing AWAY!!!!! If you don't willingly LET GO, and GOD said NO to you over and over and OVER again and even in many ways. Then GOD will snatch it away even IF he has to SNATCH the LIFE out of IT or YOU to remove it from YOUR LIFE... (You BETTER LISTEN to GOD when he speaks)
God gives us the wisdom, knowledge and understanding to STAND on and digest like some of the finest steaks. We don't spit Fillet Mignon out so tender tasting like milk chocolate to you... So WHY spit out over and over again the MEAT OF GOD??
We want strength and beg for it often times but we turn ourselves right around without any type of FIGHT about self and take our weak selves right back to it.. Now there comes a point in GOD that you have to DECIDE either this MAN/WOMAN/DRUG/ALCOHOL/CIGARETTE/MONEY/SEX lives more in me than my GOD or MY GOD lives more in me than all of that MESS...
You can KEEP rejecting GOD if you want to he will turn away from you and you won't HEAR from him.. My God~ I NEVER want to experience a day, a second, or an hour where I don't hear from My God...
See we are NOT confused about what God is saying to us. We are just SIMPLE human beings, living in our SIMPLE ways.. How DARE us ask God for EVERYTHING else but not accept the DELIVERANCE he BLESSES our lives with each and every day.. There is nothing complicated about you when you keep allowing the devil to get the glory in your life and complicate your life... There IS NO room in your life for the two, so you better know that GOD WILL WALK AWAY FROM YOU..
Speak peace into your mind, God will give it. Speak HUMBLENESS into your spirit God will give it. Speak UNDERSTANDING into your heart and mind and MY GOD will hand it to you so willingly and easily that you will be shocked at how GOD will use whoever and whatever it is to show you so CLEARLY that NO I AM NOT FOR YOU...
GOD WILL DO THAT & SO MUCH MORE~
Instead of counting it all as a loss, you should count it as ELEVATION.. You have to release in order to receive, and DON'T EVER think that you don't HAVE to let something go in order to gain WHAT/WHO God has in stored for YOU..
BE BLESSED on today & in your EVERYDAY
Love is ALWAYS LOVE & TRUTH
From
Ruth the TRUTH~
Speaking from the book of (Proverbs 1:20-33~2:1-6)
22"How long will you simple ones love your simple ways?How long will mockers delight in mockery and fools hate knowledge?
23"If you had responded to my rebuke, I would have poured out my heart to you and made my thoughts known to you."
24"But since you rejected me when I called and no one gave heed when I stretched out my hand,25since you ignored all my advice and would not accept my rebuke,I in turn will laugh at your disaster;"
33"but whoever listens to me will live in safety and be at ease, without fear of harm."
2
5"Then you will understand the fear of the Lord and find the knowledge of God."
6 "For the Lord gives wisdom, and from his mouth come knowledge and understanding."
See God shows up & he answers our doubt, questions, and even confirms what it is about that something or someone that hands us fear even. Now the question is DO WE REALLY WANT TO KNOW, WHAT WE ALREADY KNOW (do we want GOD to confirm these things for us)?? Some can say yes to that, while other bite nails and shake their head both yes and no in the same instance; while some simply say no.
How DARE us know what we know, then GOD further let's us KNOW and still go AGAINST GOD???? He WILL SNATCH that thing AWAY!!!!! If you don't willingly LET GO, and GOD said NO to you over and over and OVER again and even in many ways. Then GOD will snatch it away even IF he has to SNATCH the LIFE out of IT or YOU to remove it from YOUR LIFE... (You BETTER LISTEN to GOD when he speaks)
God gives us the wisdom, knowledge and understanding to STAND on and digest like some of the finest steaks. We don't spit Fillet Mignon out so tender tasting like milk chocolate to you... So WHY spit out over and over again the MEAT OF GOD??
We want strength and beg for it often times but we turn ourselves right around without any type of FIGHT about self and take our weak selves right back to it.. Now there comes a point in GOD that you have to DECIDE either this MAN/WOMAN/DRUG/ALCOHOL/CIGARETTE/MONEY/SEX lives more in me than my GOD or MY GOD lives more in me than all of that MESS...
You can KEEP rejecting GOD if you want to he will turn away from you and you won't HEAR from him.. My God~ I NEVER want to experience a day, a second, or an hour where I don't hear from My God...
See we are NOT confused about what God is saying to us. We are just SIMPLE human beings, living in our SIMPLE ways.. How DARE us ask God for EVERYTHING else but not accept the DELIVERANCE he BLESSES our lives with each and every day.. There is nothing complicated about you when you keep allowing the devil to get the glory in your life and complicate your life... There IS NO room in your life for the two, so you better know that GOD WILL WALK AWAY FROM YOU..
Speak peace into your mind, God will give it. Speak HUMBLENESS into your spirit God will give it. Speak UNDERSTANDING into your heart and mind and MY GOD will hand it to you so willingly and easily that you will be shocked at how GOD will use whoever and whatever it is to show you so CLEARLY that NO I AM NOT FOR YOU...
GOD WILL DO THAT & SO MUCH MORE~
Instead of counting it all as a loss, you should count it as ELEVATION.. You have to release in order to receive, and DON'T EVER think that you don't HAVE to let something go in order to gain WHAT/WHO God has in stored for YOU..
BE BLESSED on today & in your EVERYDAY
Love is ALWAYS LOVE & TRUTH
From
Ruth the TRUTH~
Monday, March 8, 2010
Knowing WHEN to RECLINE~
It's been awhile that I have had the time and energy to post, and I do apologize to those of you that look forward to hearing what GOD puts on my heart to say. I needed time to rest and gather myself, life can take you through a draining course and you sometimes have to rest up and be a FIRM believer in GOD that you will be carried through this level and on to the next ELEVATED level.
~Last week I went away to Arkansas to be with and around my grandmother, Prophetess Aquila Perkins which I might add is a VERY POWERFUL & SPIRITUAL woman of GOD. Her sister passed away and I was able to go spend the weekend with my grandmother, to simply be able to keep her company and cheer her up, being that last September my Uncle Robert passed away which happen to be my grandmothers youngest son. With that being said the weekend I spent with my grandmother turned out to be WHAT I NEEDED and for ME. I woke up on Sunday morning and found myself sick throwing up and whatever else comes along with purging from your body. My grandmother asked if I was ok and went to speaking praying, I simply went to lay back down with a cold towel on my head, sweating, shaking and trying to run through my head all that I had to eat that day. Then it dawned on me the word PURGING and the Lord spoke so clear to me and said that I am purging from my body what is not of him...
So my grandmother woke up the next morning and came to sit in the recliner next to the bed I was sleeping in and began to read a scripture to me about PURGING and she let me know HONEY god IS PURGING things from you and YOU WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AFTER THIS... I thought to myself WOW God what a way to confirm to me what I thought I heard you saying in my spirit while I was laying in that bed bald up and feeling HORRIBLE.So now I sit back and allow GOD to PREPARE me for my next level of ELEVATION and continue to be elevated even higher then what I am expecting.
When GOD is speaking, I listen......
I sit back and I hear from GOD on what I should do and when I should do it, I hear from him on who should be in my life and who simply does not belong. See I have learned to not go against the WILL of GOD when it comes to what is right for ME and MY LIFE. If he says NO to me then it is NO, and if and when he says YES to me then I bow down before HIM to be CLEAR that it is little old ME that he is saying YES to and I THANK HIM for what he has in stored for me and what he has already done in me and for me...
EVERYBODY is NOT to be placed in your life and if they are there, that don't mean they are to stay.... We make the mistake of holding on to the WRONG people and thing and end up losing ourselves and all that is in us. Being able to RECLINE and hear CLEARLY from GOD himself is what we need to come to, we need to come to a place in our lives where we UNDERSTAND we can't decide things on our own.
When you have been in the WRONG relationships for all these years and it ain't NEVER been right, then it is time to RECLINE, when you have been loving that same friend the same way all your life and they just can't get it right on how to love you; then you need to RECLINE and hear from GOD on getting OUT OF THAT MESS.. They say they NEED you though, and you can even look at them and what they are going through and see that they "NEED YOU" and you become torn because you feel like if I don't stay then I am less than.... NO NO NO IF YOU STAY THEN YOU ARE LESS THAN..
Many times we just can't seem to understand that we are handicapping that person by allow them to rely on us.. While MANY times we don't even get the fact that it's not even our attention that person wants it SOMEBODY ELSE'S. But you falling all over your self, going out of your way and pulling all of you together to give them what you call is your all. Simply to feel MORE than LESS than. You better RECLINE yourself!!! If it was for you to do and for you to be in, then it wouldn't take so much out of you....
By reclining, you are setting aside what YOU SEE and FEEL about it all and ALLOWING GOD to tell you when to move, how to move and even IF you should move.
Reclining on RELATIONSHIPS~
Just because you want that man or woman there does NOT mean that is WHAT GOD has for you, but if you were reclined THEN YOU WOULD KNOW THAT.. Yes RECLINE might even mean you will have to DECLINE hahahaha but that is alright, cause if you don't then you will be STUCK in some MESS that GOD will allow you to sit in until you DECIDE ok you know what Lord let me SIT HERE AND RECLINE, cause I DON'T KNOW WHAT I have gotten MYSELF INTO.YOURSELF is the one that did it yes, cause if GOD was involved then THERE WOULD BE KNOW MESS.. Then you wonder where your SMILE went to, because you have gone and ALLOWED your smile to be taken away. You can't find happiness, joy and love in this relationship; BECAUSE YOU HAD NO BUSINESS GETTING INTO IT TO BE GIN WITH.
You see GOD will recline you one way or another, either before you get yourself into some mess, or while you in the mist of some mess that YOU got YOURSELF into. All we have to do is TAKE IT TO GOD FIRST and our answers WILL COME.
That day my grandmother sat in that chair and RECLINED, and read to me what GOD gave her to read to me, I had ALREADY been RECLINING spiritually during my FAST so that I am ABLE to HEAR more CLEARER from GOD HIMSELF in ALL that goes on in my life. My grandmother reclined in that chair and handed me confirmation that GOD KNEW I needed, Hahahaha come to find out MAJORITY of the time I call my grandmother she is sitting in that very same recliner RECLINED and talking to ME.
Love is ALWAYS LOVE & the TRUTH
Xoxo Ruth the TRUTH
~Last week I went away to Arkansas to be with and around my grandmother, Prophetess Aquila Perkins which I might add is a VERY POWERFUL & SPIRITUAL woman of GOD. Her sister passed away and I was able to go spend the weekend with my grandmother, to simply be able to keep her company and cheer her up, being that last September my Uncle Robert passed away which happen to be my grandmothers youngest son. With that being said the weekend I spent with my grandmother turned out to be WHAT I NEEDED and for ME. I woke up on Sunday morning and found myself sick throwing up and whatever else comes along with purging from your body. My grandmother asked if I was ok and went to speaking praying, I simply went to lay back down with a cold towel on my head, sweating, shaking and trying to run through my head all that I had to eat that day. Then it dawned on me the word PURGING and the Lord spoke so clear to me and said that I am purging from my body what is not of him...
So my grandmother woke up the next morning and came to sit in the recliner next to the bed I was sleeping in and began to read a scripture to me about PURGING and she let me know HONEY god IS PURGING things from you and YOU WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AFTER THIS... I thought to myself WOW God what a way to confirm to me what I thought I heard you saying in my spirit while I was laying in that bed bald up and feeling HORRIBLE.So now I sit back and allow GOD to PREPARE me for my next level of ELEVATION and continue to be elevated even higher then what I am expecting.
When GOD is speaking, I listen......
I sit back and I hear from GOD on what I should do and when I should do it, I hear from him on who should be in my life and who simply does not belong. See I have learned to not go against the WILL of GOD when it comes to what is right for ME and MY LIFE. If he says NO to me then it is NO, and if and when he says YES to me then I bow down before HIM to be CLEAR that it is little old ME that he is saying YES to and I THANK HIM for what he has in stored for me and what he has already done in me and for me...
EVERYBODY is NOT to be placed in your life and if they are there, that don't mean they are to stay.... We make the mistake of holding on to the WRONG people and thing and end up losing ourselves and all that is in us. Being able to RECLINE and hear CLEARLY from GOD himself is what we need to come to, we need to come to a place in our lives where we UNDERSTAND we can't decide things on our own.
When you have been in the WRONG relationships for all these years and it ain't NEVER been right, then it is time to RECLINE, when you have been loving that same friend the same way all your life and they just can't get it right on how to love you; then you need to RECLINE and hear from GOD on getting OUT OF THAT MESS.. They say they NEED you though, and you can even look at them and what they are going through and see that they "NEED YOU" and you become torn because you feel like if I don't stay then I am less than.... NO NO NO IF YOU STAY THEN YOU ARE LESS THAN..
Many times we just can't seem to understand that we are handicapping that person by allow them to rely on us.. While MANY times we don't even get the fact that it's not even our attention that person wants it SOMEBODY ELSE'S. But you falling all over your self, going out of your way and pulling all of you together to give them what you call is your all. Simply to feel MORE than LESS than. You better RECLINE yourself!!! If it was for you to do and for you to be in, then it wouldn't take so much out of you....
By reclining, you are setting aside what YOU SEE and FEEL about it all and ALLOWING GOD to tell you when to move, how to move and even IF you should move.
Reclining on RELATIONSHIPS~
Just because you want that man or woman there does NOT mean that is WHAT GOD has for you, but if you were reclined THEN YOU WOULD KNOW THAT.. Yes RECLINE might even mean you will have to DECLINE hahahaha but that is alright, cause if you don't then you will be STUCK in some MESS that GOD will allow you to sit in until you DECIDE ok you know what Lord let me SIT HERE AND RECLINE, cause I DON'T KNOW WHAT I have gotten MYSELF INTO.YOURSELF is the one that did it yes, cause if GOD was involved then THERE WOULD BE KNOW MESS.. Then you wonder where your SMILE went to, because you have gone and ALLOWED your smile to be taken away. You can't find happiness, joy and love in this relationship; BECAUSE YOU HAD NO BUSINESS GETTING INTO IT TO BE GIN WITH.
You see GOD will recline you one way or another, either before you get yourself into some mess, or while you in the mist of some mess that YOU got YOURSELF into. All we have to do is TAKE IT TO GOD FIRST and our answers WILL COME.
That day my grandmother sat in that chair and RECLINED, and read to me what GOD gave her to read to me, I had ALREADY been RECLINING spiritually during my FAST so that I am ABLE to HEAR more CLEARER from GOD HIMSELF in ALL that goes on in my life. My grandmother reclined in that chair and handed me confirmation that GOD KNEW I needed, Hahahaha come to find out MAJORITY of the time I call my grandmother she is sitting in that very same recliner RECLINED and talking to ME.
Love is ALWAYS LOVE & the TRUTH
Xoxo Ruth the TRUTH
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Assignments~
I think about all the many people and things that have crossed my path through out my life and I see what and who should have been temporary in my life. I also see how I made them permanent even though they should have been simple brief encounters/assignments...
I have experienced various levels of life and people, and in my experiences I have learned many great lessons. In knowing the things that I have learned, it is up to ME to move on and let go of so much.
If things were meant to stay, then GOD wouldn't strip them away from us the way that he does. We continue to go back anyway and put that person or thing back in our lives and allow it/them to just send us through even deeper hell; then before. Instead of us TRUSTING in the LORD, we are trusting in our fleshly wants and needs, while not being able to understand how rebelling against GOD can get us in a world of trouble with GOD.
GOD understands and knows what is good for me and what I can and can not handle in this life. So what makes me think that I can do it by myself? I CAN'T.... I need to have full understanding of myself and my spiritual elevation to even be able to continue on with some of my choices in life. If it is not handed over to me from the spiritual world, in the spiritual word then I don't want it. See, we have to condition ourselves to be clear in all that we do and understand when it comes to letting people and certain things into our lives, we have to KNOW WHAT WE ARE DOING. You don't want to be forcing people and things to stick around and that ain't what GOD wants for you; Because if GOD has to forcefully REMOVE something that should not be........ Ha! I don't even think you want that, simply because if HE says NO then that means NO.... It don't mean, ok just in this way, or just for now, or aww but if I....... No, no, no WHEN GOD SAY'S NO that is just what that means......NO!!!!! You will mess around and have a life time of PAIN & SUFFERING, second guessing GOD...
Allow your assignments to be COMPLETED and MOVE ON.. Allow your assignments to know and understand that they are NOTHING MORE then just that (an assignment).... Be clear and have full understanding that your heart can deceive you in many ways, especially if your not PROPERLY LIVING FOR CHRIST.... To be mislead by a deceiving heart can put you into some mess that you can't get out of for the rest of your life. Being clear of the straight path that GOD has laid out before you should be enough to sustain you in your choices in life as men and women.
Always remember that there is NO STRENGTH in a WEAK HEART.... So don't throw your emotions and energy into something that is to be completed in a certain amount of time...
Assignments are to be completed, finished, done and over with; so there is no reason for these finished, done, and over with things/people to continue to have room to pop up in our lives.. Nor should we be LOOKING for a reason to make them stay in our lives....... LET GO & LET GOD use you and LOVE YOU the way that you should be LOVING YOURSELF.
Love is Always LOVE
Ruth the TRUTH
I have experienced various levels of life and people, and in my experiences I have learned many great lessons. In knowing the things that I have learned, it is up to ME to move on and let go of so much.
If things were meant to stay, then GOD wouldn't strip them away from us the way that he does. We continue to go back anyway and put that person or thing back in our lives and allow it/them to just send us through even deeper hell; then before. Instead of us TRUSTING in the LORD, we are trusting in our fleshly wants and needs, while not being able to understand how rebelling against GOD can get us in a world of trouble with GOD.
GOD understands and knows what is good for me and what I can and can not handle in this life. So what makes me think that I can do it by myself? I CAN'T.... I need to have full understanding of myself and my spiritual elevation to even be able to continue on with some of my choices in life. If it is not handed over to me from the spiritual world, in the spiritual word then I don't want it. See, we have to condition ourselves to be clear in all that we do and understand when it comes to letting people and certain things into our lives, we have to KNOW WHAT WE ARE DOING. You don't want to be forcing people and things to stick around and that ain't what GOD wants for you; Because if GOD has to forcefully REMOVE something that should not be........ Ha! I don't even think you want that, simply because if HE says NO then that means NO.... It don't mean, ok just in this way, or just for now, or aww but if I....... No, no, no WHEN GOD SAY'S NO that is just what that means......NO!!!!! You will mess around and have a life time of PAIN & SUFFERING, second guessing GOD...
Allow your assignments to be COMPLETED and MOVE ON.. Allow your assignments to know and understand that they are NOTHING MORE then just that (an assignment).... Be clear and have full understanding that your heart can deceive you in many ways, especially if your not PROPERLY LIVING FOR CHRIST.... To be mislead by a deceiving heart can put you into some mess that you can't get out of for the rest of your life. Being clear of the straight path that GOD has laid out before you should be enough to sustain you in your choices in life as men and women.
Always remember that there is NO STRENGTH in a WEAK HEART.... So don't throw your emotions and energy into something that is to be completed in a certain amount of time...
Assignments are to be completed, finished, done and over with; so there is no reason for these finished, done, and over with things/people to continue to have room to pop up in our lives.. Nor should we be LOOKING for a reason to make them stay in our lives....... LET GO & LET GOD use you and LOVE YOU the way that you should be LOVING YOURSELF.
Love is Always LOVE
Ruth the TRUTH
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